living it day to day

but i'ce been busy with work and what not. i hope everyone is having a great summer. my summer has been EH!!!
so basically my summer has been even more... dramatic than the school year. so at the end of the year i feel for this girl and her name is serice and she is one of the greatest girls you'd ever meet and well long story short. i love her and she loves me but im not sure if she really does.but i dont know im sure she does. but we can only be together (Another words be a couple) once a month and i dont know if i like that. and the only reason that is, is cause shes dating my friend kelly... i dont know i love her so much just as much as i love Joe (yes he's still in lmy life i can never let him go) and im starting to give up any hope i had of being with either one of them and i hate this cause i love them and i mean it when i say i truly am in love with them. in all honeslty im just gonna say thois but i want joe to stop hurting... well thats all for now i'll ad more later.

so today, was interesting. i had a bad day, my mom had yelled at me last night about joe, (this guy i love) thats him. he is sooo cute.. well to me :D

 anyway short version she threatened me saying that if anything happened between me and him i'd be eather grounded or kicked out. she didn't specify.
i love him sooo much to bad he's dating my friend (below)

i love him and he admitted to having  crush on me.. idk confusion there.

the song only you is i swear is the song of my life.. or love life heres why...


Looking from the window above
It’s like a story of love
Can you hear me?
Came back only yesterday
Who went further away
Want you near me **************************my life is like a love story, a tragic love story. the further away he is the more i want him near me

All I needed was the love you gave
All I needed for another day
And all I ever knew
Only you **************************   all i need to keep me going is the love you give

Sometimes when I think of her name
When it’s only a game
And I need you
Listen to the words that you say
It’s getting harder to stay
When I need you ************************** no matter how much i want i know that he is only playing games. every time you say those words it makes me want to leave for i know they cant be true. but i need you

All I needed was the love you gave
All I needed for another day
And all I ever knew
Only you **************************all i need to keep me going is the love you give

This is gonna take a long time
And I wonder what’s mine
Can’t take no more **************************  i dont know if you are mine. or if your love is mine

Wonder if you’ll understand
It’s just the touch of your hand
Behind a closed door **************************  i wonder if you'll ever understand what a touch does to me

All I needed was the love you gave
All I needed for another day
And all I ever knew
Only you***************************  all i need to keep me going is the love you give